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Post by Roseflight~Stonepaw on Feb 16, 2010 20:02:34 GMT -5
Rosepaw gently pressed her nose to his cheek to calm him. It stressed her too to see him like this. She could tell that this was tearing at him too, if not as much as it did Rosepaw. But she wasn't going to force him to choose between his want of having kits and beingwith Gladepaw rather than have a forbidden love that would get them in trouble just to be with Rosepaw.
"Be with Gladepaw. . ." she whispered by his ear, her mussle still pressed to his cheek. "Have kits, and be happy. I'll be alright if you're happy. We'll still be together in a way, as best friends, as we always have. I'm not going to let you risk everything for me." She hoped he would listen, and not fret over her emotions. It would make eveything harder. Goldenblaze needed what was best for him.
She had nothing to loose either way.
As long as her friend was happy.
((OOC: ohcrap XD here come some waterworks))
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Post by Goldenblaze on Feb 16, 2010 20:12:15 GMT -5
His eyes went wide. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. How could he live a normal life, when he knew that Rosepaw and himself were in love?!
"But...I love you, I can't just..." he couldn't find the words. He just wanted to forget SunClan, forget StarClan, forget everything but Rosepaw...it just wasn't fair. Her muzzle against his cheek comforted him, but his belly churned with unease...
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Post by Roseflight~Stonepaw on Feb 16, 2010 20:23:11 GMT -5
She slowly pulled away and looked him in the eyes. His handsome, blue eyes. The eyes she would want her kits to have if she ever had a litter. Her own eyes glistened with sadness, betraying nothing else. Or was that the look of love? The emotion was so knew, that she wasn't sure what it looked like yet.
"How would we do it Goldenblaze? Doveheart would find out. There is no possible way to conceive kits without someone knowing. There would be questions, and no one would know what to do. If they kick me out of my rank, there is nothing more for me in this clan. But you. . . You have other friends. You have someone else you can love. Someone else you can speak freely with." she tried to say gently. But it was ripping both their hearts to shreds. There was no gentle way about it. Rosepaw had no question about her feelings for the tom. But she questioned if both of them were willing to risk everything for eachother.
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Post by Goldenblaze on Feb 16, 2010 20:41:07 GMT -5
There was a stinging in his eyes, but he blinked back tears. He nodded, heartbroken.
"You could have always been a queen...but you wouldn't have liked that, would you? You're a medicine cat...it's...how it works..." he didn't even try to fake a happy face, or a look that said he was alright. He was miserable, and wanted to curl up like a kit and bawl. But, he's a warrior. He would never give in to the temptation to cry...not over something like love. It was his fault. He fell in love with her, he must deserve this pain. StarClan know it.
He turned to look at the herbs at his paws, and whispered, "I'd give everything up for you...I want you to know that..."
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Post by Roseflight~Stonepaw on Feb 16, 2010 20:57:54 GMT -5
Rosepaw tenderly licked his cheek. He was ripping her heart out and gouging it without really knowing.The world was so unfair. And Goldenblaze was somehow strong enough not to cry when her own eyes were starting to water.
"This will somehow work out. I swear by StarClan it will." she whispered weakly. "If there is any chance for us to be together, I'll try and take it. But give us time. Give Gladepaw time. If you grow to love her instead, I'll be alright. If not, I'll wait for you. And you don't always have to be the strong one.
"I can still handle more than most would think."
She licked his cheek again, lovingly.
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Post by Goldenblaze on Feb 17, 2010 18:38:32 GMT -5
The golden tom just nodded, afraid his voice wouldn't hold if he spoke.
Give Gladepaw time... he would, he'd give her a chance...but he'd never love anyone more than his precious Rosepaw.
If Rosepaw could find a way, he'd wait forever. Even if he was with Gladepaw...
wouldn't he?
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Post by Roseflight~Stonepaw on Feb 17, 2010 18:55:33 GMT -5
"Just try and be happy." she murmured finally, before drawing away. She picked up her roots, and motioned for the warrior to follow her back to camp. They had only needed burdock root in the first place.
Rosepaw tried her best to straighten her face, so that her clanmates would suspect nothing. If they did, everything could come tumbling down before it even started. But it wasn't to unusual to see the two cats enter camp together, since they tried to spend time together and everyone knew they were close friends.
Soon enough, people will expect it to be Gladepaw walking beside Goldenblaze instead, replacing Rosepaw. The other she-cat seemed like the perfect choice for Goldenblaze, in the eyes of everyone other than the tom himself. Even Rosepaw thought they would be nice together, although she would always yearn for it to be her instead.
'You have to let him go. . . At least for now. If you love him, you will let him go. If he returns, he loves you. But if he does not, it was never meant to be.' She told herself.
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Post by Goldenblaze on Feb 20, 2010 16:33:09 GMT -5
Goldenblaze padded after her.
I'll try, but without you, how can I be happy? he thought miserably to himself. He wasn't sure if he could give his heart fully to Gladepaw...
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Post by Roseflight~Stonepaw on Feb 20, 2010 16:52:05 GMT -5
The medicine cat could feel the despair coming off her best friend in waves as they entered camp. It seemed she was the only one who took notice. They had been friends long enough that hiding emotion was at times impossible, especially for the tom who Roseflight could read like a book half the time.
But she couldn't say anything at the moment.
Not with everyone watching.
So she padded into the medicine cat den, and splayed her herbs down, ready to try and cheer Goldernblaze up, somehow.
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Post by Goldenblaze on Feb 20, 2010 17:10:43 GMT -5
Putting the herbs down in the medicine cat's den, he turned to his friend, "Anything else you need me to do?"
He tried to clear his mind of the events. He didn't want to go through the rest of his day feeling sorry for himself.
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Post by Roseflight~Stonepaw on Feb 20, 2010 17:24:06 GMT -5
'For us to run away and be together and be perfect and-' She gently shook her head, as if to expel the thoughts. No. It wasn't right to have him throw everything away just for her. Not unless he was sure about what he wanted. Not unless he was sure he was willing to give up Gladepaw.
"Want to share a piece of prey?" she offered. Maybe just eating together would help both of them.
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Post by doveheart on Feb 20, 2010 20:47:41 GMT -5
Doveheart padded into camp. Something had clearly set off the medicine cat, for she was walking stiff leged and her tail was fluffed out. Claws dug into the ground and she released a low hiss. The she-cat stalked over to her den, hearing the calico's voice just before she entered. Before her ice blue eyes adjusted, she caught the scent of Goldenblaze. Her random anger suddenly vanished as she blinked once or twice, her dream had come back to her.
Goldenblaze's scent with a flower.
Roseflight!
"Sit and explain." She mewed calmly, moving past them to put the brought in herbs in their proper places.
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Post by Goldenblaze on Feb 20, 2010 22:03:49 GMT -5
Goldenblaze blinked as Doveheart started to organize the herbs.
"What do you mean?" he asked, "I was going to get some prey...would you like anything, Doveheart?" Goldenblaze offered the medicine cat.
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Post by doveheart on Feb 20, 2010 22:20:38 GMT -5
"You," Doveheart started, turning to look at both cats, "will go no where until I've figured something out."
The medicine cat moved away from the herbs and faced her apprentice and the warrior. Pulling her haunches under her, she gazed at them with a calm and blank expression. She missed no emotion that passed across their faces. It felt as though her old mentor Silverface were standing beside her, whispering words of gentleness into her ear.
"I will not do anything rash, but I have a feeling that somethings up, and I want to know what it is."
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Post by Goldenblaze on Feb 20, 2010 22:42:46 GMT -5
Goldenblaze looked at Roseflight, worried.
Does she know? Are we in trouble? he wondered.
He was afraid to answer, although Doveheart was calm, and didn't seem angry. He wasn't sure what he should and shouldn't say. He looked over at Roseflight again, wondering if he should let her do all the talking...Doveheart is her mentor, and she'd know what to say to her...
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